Category Archives: My Conversations with God

It’s time. This is finally happening! And I shall get right down to it. Although I begin with some trepidation, I accept the fact that God has clearly led me to do this: To share a large part of generally applicable stuff that I have learned from Him in our times together. Years ago, Joy Dawson inspired me to “pray with a pen in my hand.” I had always been a journal writer/keeper, so it was only a matter of time before my journals sort of morphed into more of a record of my prayers and God’s personal answers to me, and less the record of recent activities, although sometimes that is included too. In the following pages of this section, I will include the bits that He has led me to include, as they may have some relevance or usefulness to others. God has indicated to me that this is the case, and that’s why I’ve taken the time (and will be doing so for months to come,) to transcribe the possibly relevant parts out of my handwritten journals and enter them into this blog.

I would love to hear back from anyone these conversations might be useful to, as I wish to be available to pray for you and encourage you along the way. We all have challenges and areas in our lives that present opportunity for us to grow…closer to God. And there’s always the lurking possibility that we might choose to head the other direction in times of stress or trial. But my prayer is that these pages will help to strengthen your faith and your determination to become more and more intimate with the One who loves you most. For this is why we were created!

For any of you who may wonder if a conversation with GOD is possible, I joyfully remind you that this is what prayer IS: a conversation with God. We talk to Him. He hears us. And you can rest assured that if you will just be still and wait…He will meet you right where you are – He always does – and He will answer you in your own heart language.

Not exactly sure where to begin, as I’ve not gone way far back into the years yet…But I shall begin, as with just about everything else I do these days, as He leads. I have a strong suspicion that the real reason I have this blog is for what is going to be entered into the pages of this section. May the Lord bless you in the reading.

Doing God’s will in making decisions

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 from Thursday, July 9, 2015

I say: What is Your will, Lord, so I can do it?

You say: It is not for you to accomplish some great thing, some work. It is for you (My people) to experience Me and all of Who I Am…Really saturate yourself with Who I Am. Experience MY Love, My wisdom, My mercy, My power, My grace, My kindness, My Life.

That is what I will for you. You hear that little rooster up there – barely trying out his new man voice…giving it a crow here and there, managing to croak out a little something? That’s how My people are…just barely eking out, managing to squeeze out a little of My Life into their lives. And it shouldn’t be that way. It doesn’t have to be that way. That’s not the plan. Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. My presence has not been allowed to fill the heart. It gets pushed out by the cares of the world.

July 16, 2015

I pray: Lord, please help us all to hear Your heart and Your discernment. I love You, Lord. You are All in All, no matter what! Help us to see and respond correctly, (pleasingly to You,) to the matters that You know are important and to not react to the ones that aren’t. Only You know. And I love You and I love and appreciate that You want us to know and that You are so accessible to us! You give Yourself completely to us. Thank You Lord, for this giving that You do. I love You and I long to be closer to you in my soul and in my physical self. I know we are one in Spirit because You have made my spirit alive with Your very Life. I would have no living Spirit within me, without You. Lord, bring a depth to the music You give us and the writing we do, and the art we do, as well as the art of living, in general. A joyous depth that shines out to others with Your sweet and powerful Life – Your Love.

I know this is Your mission for us, Your children. Lord, bar the way that is not Your way. Light the paths of thinking that agree with you. I love You. I am not often really understood, Lord, but I don’t have to be. You will make the important things understood by Your Spirit. Help me to understand! Help me to love.

The image in that story of the Confederate soldier who crossed the line to give water to the crying, wounded Union soldiers, and the cease-fire that resulted for long enough to let him carry out his loving task….the motherly care he provided out of the depths of his compassion, inspires me to be more caring, more truly loving. As Your love supercedes and becomes mine, open the ways for me to care for others. I realize that in praying this I am accepting Your challenge. I realize that in new ways I release control to You. But…I see no way around it if I am to continue to grow in You. I love You, and I want to grow in You, because I am greedy for You.

I think:  “DO you love Me? Then feed My sheep.” Yes, I do,so show me Your ways to feed Your sheep, O Gentle Shepherd of mine. Show me Your feeding…ways, I guess, for absence of of a better word. I know it happens via being sensitive to Your leading by Your Spirit. Relieve me of “learned missionary consciousness” and help me to give freely, knowing that You are the provider of all.

I know You are doing this work in us. You give freely as we give freely. As we give out, You replenish. Thank You for Your supply.

(Regarding a purchase issue:)

I do not know, but You do know. Help us to be wise with Your tree of Life wisdom – not the wisdom from the other tree.

You say: Once again, it’s very rarely as you think it is. Sometimes you see a bit of it, but you never can quite see all, and this is for a reason: Chiefly, My mercy keeps it from you, lest you be overwhelmed.
I say: Sounds protective.

You say: Well, yes and no. It’s also a practical thing as it keeps you listening for more, searching Me for more. Keeps you hungry. So it is a real help.

I say: Okay, I get that, but in something as simple as a purchase? I’m sure you can just give us a yes or a no.

You say: Sure I can.

I say: So?

You say: Listen, listen. Take more time to really listen to Me and disregard, in matters like this, your practical thinking. If you want to do practical thinking then decide on that basis. If you want what I know, then you need to listen.

When you use your practical mind, you think, “Okay, this and this and this – these are the good/positive points in this matter. And that and that and that – They are the bad/negative ones. You map it out according to the wrong tree (knowledge of good and evil.)

When you use My divine mind, which you may use at any time, I will show you…because I know, because I see the end from the beginning of all matters and “issues.”

I say: I assume that if You are leading us in this, that the money is not an obstacle?

You say: Well, it tends to be an obstacle as far as your faith is concerned, doesn’t it?

I say: Seems to be.

(Update: The Lord did tell us what to do, and we did it. The seller agreed to the amount the Lord told us to offer and the purchase was made. And it has proven to be a good decision.)

 

excerpt from July 7, 2015

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 me:

I see myself in the past, and even these days, still slipping into huffing and puffing and “trying to do it all.” What a silly picture I see!

You:

Silly and sad too, because My people are so resistant to simply resting in Me. “The work of the Lord,” is simply resting in Me with full confidence and trust that I will both lead and do what is best…because only I know what is best.

 me:

Yes, only You know, and yet we grapple with knowing when all we have to do is listen to Your heart!

You:

“Grapple with knowing” is a good way to put it. There is a striving that needn’t be. It steals the peace that has already been provided and puts it in the background or the foreground off in the distance, as something to be attained. You do not need to achieve My peace or anything else! It has all been attained and provided for you. All you need do, if you choose to, is to walk in it – abide with Me. Abide in My presence, being watered by My Word and My Spirit. The fruit is inevitable! And nobody can argue with lovely, juicy, ripe fruit. It simply is, and it is for the taking. And as people partake of it, they become transformed by its nourishment – revived, made more alive. It is always this way with Me. Always.

If there is a sense of being less alive, it comes from an opposing something that fights against My Good Truth and Love. It is easy to recognize and to nip in the bud: When there is not peace ruling and leading, find what is ruling and leading and put it out. Then hop back on the “peace train,” to quote an old favorite song of yours. You have ME – all of who I AM – in your spirit. This includes My peace, love, wisdom, perfect divine life and health, kindness, patience, understanding – everything I AM in in you. And you can yield to all of it, some of it, or none of it. None, some, or all.

me:

I’m thinking of the parable that speaks of 30, 60 or 100 fold return…How do people function on the planet, yielding to ALL of it?!?

You:

Only One person has ever done that. But it is possible, as He said, through Him, to do. My people just don’t believe it, really.

There are physical laws/parameters that, while you are in this cosmos, you need to work within. However, if My will being done requires over-riding these laws, My Spirit easily over-rides them. That’s how it works. It is My will – related.

 me:

But isn’t healing always Your will? So why are we not always healed: an over-riding of physical laws/constraints?

You:

Sin, sickness and disease are all equally related to the fall and all equally annihilated by the Life, death and resurrection of My Son. It has been done. Man fell. World system was hijacked by air prince who deceives. Individuals are redeemed by Son’s sacrifice for them at their acceptance of Our love. Ideally, at the moment of new birth, all would be transformed. But you know the soul and the body are not as easily inhabited as the spirit of a man. They have their set ways that were formed in fallen-ness.

As you know, as you press into Me, they become less and less fallen or set in their deceived fallen-ness. They become transformed. You will prosper as your soul prospers. Your soul will prosper as it is transformed by My Spirit. It is inevitable, whether it happens on this plane or the next, now or later. But I know you want to see it happen here and now. You fight and resist it also though. You know you do. The only way not to resist Me is to actively take captive every single thought that exalts itself against the knowledge of Me and to submit to My higher, supernatural Life in all you do. Simple!

me:

Well, you make it sound that way! And I see that we’re the ones who complicate it. That’s certainly very easy to see. And…we’ve got a lot of “help” in the complication department.

You:

Yes, but not nearly as much Help as you have in the transformation department!

me:

So true! Seeing You’re omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient and “all!”

You:

Right, so it is very thick of people to bog down in the whole thing, when all they really need do is fly!

me:

Thick, indeed…one of Mom’s favorite words. How is she?

You: 

Joyous! You reason that anyone 100% in My presence will be joyous. But picture her: Dancing, singing, painting, forming beauty with her hands, laughing. Now picture this: Picture you doing all that here on Earth – in complete freedom. Picture it! See it. You do all these things but not in complete freedom. Yet you could. You have all of Me here now. Use My Life. How I long for My people to use My Life! It’s as if it weren’t unlimited! People are stingy with Me. This should never be!!! It is a grave error. Turn the tap on all the way. You never need to conserve Me. Ever.

There are times when I will share with you counsel that is only for you. That is not what I mean about conserving Me. Pieces of wisdom fit into place and all have their places. But if you keep the tap open to Me at all times, you will find so many needs being met in and all around you. It is What I Do. It is Who I AM. It is not a matter of coming back to Me for more. It is a matter of My being always here, available on demand, as called upon. You see, this is regarded by the religious as, “radical.” Good! I Am radical. Look it up.

And so I did look it up and discovered the following information from the dictionary:

radical: as adjective:

1. (especially of change or action) relating to or affecting the fundamental nature of something; far-reaching or thorough, complete, total, comprehensive, exhaustive, sweeping, far-reaching, wide-ranging, extensive,across the board, profound, major, stringent, rigorous
2. advocating or based on thorough or complete reform / revolutionary

as noun:

chemistry: a group of atoms behaving as a unit in a number of compounds

as adjective:

1. of or relating to or proceeding from a root
2. of or relating to the origin
3. a) very different from usual or ordinary
b) favoring extreme changes in existing views, habits, conditions or institutions

origin: Latin: radic-radix / root / foundation

free radical: an especially reactive atom or group of atoms that has one or more unpaired electrons; especially: one that is produced in the body by natural biological processes or introduced from an outside source that can affect cells, proteins, and DNA by altering their chemical structure

me:

Hmm….lots to consider here! If I read without negative context, “introduced from an outside source (God as invited in) that can “affect” cells, proteins and DNA by altering their (fallen) chemical structure…producing healing!

In the context of the body of Christ, one of us free radicals can affect the whole body by altering its DNA…as You alter ours.

You:

In science, free radicals are “bad rebel” atoms that cause trouble Well, I cause big trouble to a fallen world and fallen humanity, because I radically transform those who have Me in them and I change their fallen-ness to wholeness.

The world prince (temporary) reads this as big trouble (as in, ‘Houston, we have a problem!”) But that’s because the world is operating backwards and upside down from My kingdom. (Think: Screwtape Letters.)

Within you is the transforming power to re-create everything for My glory. Everything in and round you!

Remember, at the beginning of your trip to the States I said to you, “I am in you, therefore everything is supernatural.”

me:

Yes, I well remember it.

You:

I meant it!

me:

You mean everything You say, Lord. You don’t ever not mean it.

You:

Yes, but I mean: IT IS TIME FOR YOU TO ACT LIKE THIS IS TRUE!

me:

Okay! Please help me do it!

You:

I will! I Am!

me:

Lead the way. Please keep me open and hearing You, Lord. I am completely dependent upon You.